I honestly can’t believe it’s been three months since our wedding day. It brings tears to my eyes just to think back to February 19th, 2017. It was the MOST perfect day. I decided to rest today, grab some hot tea, and write our wedding story out. It’s been something I have wanted to do for a while, not just so I’ll remember all the details down the road but for every single girl/guy out there reading this who feels like they don’t have a story or that their story even matters to God, because I promise you your story matters MORE to Him than you could ever imagine. Our journey has shown us that He cares about the details and the deepest, craziest desires of our hearts. And for every girl out there still single, I pray that our story encourages your heart to keep waiting, hoping, praying, and dreaming for the one God has for you. It’s a journey. It’s hard. It takes work and sacrifice. But when you relinquish the details of your story to God, He has a way of using every moment for His glory.
Engagement season for us was difficult. Matt found out quickly that I cry… A LOT!! I guess I always thought that planning my wedding would be full of constant giddiness and excitement and so much joy. Not that I didn’t have little moments like that, but, if I’m honest, they were hard to come by. And when they did come I fought so hard to keep them. I’m NOT a details person (the Lord did not wire me that way) so I found it extremely difficult to balance all the details of planning a wedding with the emotions of trying to please people. Pinterest was my greatest enemy and I found myself caught in the battle of comparison. I would feel more stressed and overwhelmed than anything when I felt like I didn’t measure up to the expectations of others. It broke me at times. I worried A LOT and I let the enemy steal what the Lord intended for good. As I look back now I see how the Lord was in every single detail. He wasn’t absent (like my heart wanted to lead me to believe at times) but He was more present than ever. He never left. He was teaching me something about myself and areas I really needed to expose and work on. He was teaching me surrender. We are never truly free until we let go and He was waiting on me to relinquish every detail and to let Him have control. I loved the opinions of others more but God does not share His glory. He wanted to be our ONE thing. He wanted my heart to fully trust Him to figure out every detail, and when I finally did, He authored the most beautiful story.
The deepest desire of my heart for our wedding day was that the Lord would be EVER-PRESENT and it would be a day that could only be explained by Him. I wanted people’s hearts to see the incredible, amazing and REDEEMING God we serve. Up to our day I would journal these prayers and explain to the Lord that this is what I desired. I would relinquish all control on the pages of my journal but when I had to walk it out it wasn’t as easy. My human tendency was to try and control, which was an open door for worry and fear to have their place in my heart. It wasn’t as easy just to simply trust. And so every single day up to February 19th the Lord began to teach me what it truly means to TRUST Him. And then our wedding day came and God revealed to me that He kept EVERY SINGLE TEAR and there wasn’t a prayer He didn’t answer. I am not a details person, but He is a details God. He allowed two imperfect people to become one as He orchestrated the most BEAUTIFUL day, all the while rerouting a huge thunderstorm and allowing the sun to peak through the clouds!! Our story is by no means perfect. We have struggled. We’ve made mistakes. It hasn’t been easy. At times it wasn’t what we had imagined or even planned out for ourselves but it’s ours and we consider it the greatest honor that the Lord would use us as a little part in His greater plan. One thing the Lord taught us through it all is that difficulties and challenges are “hand tailored blessings designed for our benefit and growth and to provide protection for the idolatry of our own self-reliance.” We cannot do this life on our own. So when you face difficulties, hold your head up, press on through, and TRUST that the Lord will bring good out of every situation. He’s our best friend and looking back we wouldn’t change any part of the journey because it changed us and strengthened our hearts for this journey of marriage.
Our day wouldn’t have been what it was without every single one of you who loved, supported, prayed, and spoke words of encouragement over us. We say THANK YOU from the deepest part of our hearts. You have played such a special role in our lives and we are forever grateful. And a HUGE thank you to our amazing family. We could not have done it without your love and support. Our wedding party we love you guys to death!! Pastor Ron and Pastor Tommy, thank you for the deep investment you both have made in our lives. Regi and Anita, thank you for ushering in the spirit of God and creating an atmosphere of worship. We love you guys so much!! Anika, you made me feel like the most beautiful person. Beth, girl you are a gift from God. Thank you for making every detail of our wedding flawless. Britt, my best friend. I LOVE you to pieces. Thanks for believing in me and walking through every part of this journey with me. I love you. And for all those I have left out, you mean the world to my husband and I. Thank you again.
We would love to share with you some of our favorite wedding photos. We hope you enjoy them!! And a huge thank you to Rachel Megan Photography and the amazing work she did!! We are so in love!