Ya’ll, marriage is so wonderful, beautiful and refining. I’ve had so much fun these past few months learning about myself and cultivating our home. We moved into the cutest little rental home in Richardson and I’ve had to learn how to decorate. Decorating does not come easy for me even though I absolutely love it. I’m not one of those people that can find the cutest, most unique things at a thrift store for next to nothing and bring it home and make it look amazing! I so wish I had that gift. Maybe one day :) So it’s been runs to home goods, attempting thrift stores, and taking our time make our little place a home.
One thing I am absolutely LOVING right now is house plants. They bring so much life into your home and there is SO many to choose from. AND the best thing is, they are hard to kill. I honestly don’t know if I have ever kept a plant alive but these house plants are making me feel so good about myself, haha. You only have to water them once a week and they don’t require a lot of sun, just a little window light. My favorite one right now is a philodendron. It’s so beautiful and big and green. I think I love it so much because it reminds me of Africa.
A few weeks ago Matt and I took a weekend trip to Austin and we stayed in the cutest little cabin. I love Austin so much and they have some of the best greenhouses there. I couldn’t wait to take Matt to my most favorite one where we found our first philodendron plant. Ya’ll, we bought our first plant together and I felt like we were bringing home our first child, haha. We brought it home and placed it in the perfect place we thought it would thrive. As I watched it over the next few days I saw that it began to get droopy and lose some life within it. It looked like it was dying. I honestly started to get depressed thinking I’ve already killed this plant. A week went by and as I seemed to watch it every morning it was still losing life. I watered it and cared for it the best I knew how but something just wasn’t right. Matt and I decided to move it to a different part of the house one morning where it was directly in front of the window, thinking that maybe it needed more light. The next morning I got up and sat on the couch with my coffee and immediately noticed the plant had completely changed. It was full of life and looked as if it was thriving again. It was starving for light.
The Lord began to speak to my heart as I could so easily relate. There have been so many pieces of my life that I have let lose their life whether it’s a certain dream or desire because I didn’t place myself in a thriving environment. I didn’t nurture those parts of me well so they lost their light as I lost my hope. It was as if I would remove them from the light thinking it was the better option, that I wasn’t good enough or worth it enough to pursue what I knew the Lord was speaking to my heart. When I began to see this plant thrive when it was placed in the right environment where it could grow it was a reminder to nurture myself and place myself in environments where my dreams, ideas, and callings can thrive. We can’t do this alone. We need each other to help us grow and chase after those dreams that beat so deeply within us. It’s so easy to remove yourself from the things you need most because of comparison, worry, and fear. I’ve been there. It’s ok to process through these emotions but to do so in the light of others and the word of God. Because in the light they may be present but they cannot stay they have to go. They are replaced with words and feelings that produce growth, strength, and confidence because you know WHO you are and WHOSE you are.
This crazy little plant is a daily reminder for me follow the light, grow in the word, and let the LIGHT of Jesus drown out all the parts of my life that are not thriving in the light. When we allow the light to shine in our own lives we can help bring out the light in others.
“Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.” – Matt 5:16