Today I took a few minutes just to sit back and reflect on the month of March. I had to go back and read my post from January to remind myself of the promise I made: to embrace “imperfect progress” covered in GRACE. I promised that I wouldn’t allow imperfection to steal my JOY but to embrace the messy parts of life I may not understand. March was a month of new opportunity but was also very challenging and full of emotion. I didn’t reach very many of my goals but I did reach a few (Thank you JESUS!!). It was a month of travel, my lease ending on my apartment, trying to find a place to live, and the passing of a sweet soul. My amazing uncle lost his fight with stage 4 pancreatic cancer but won his victory in heaven and gained his wings about a week ago. We will miss him dearly.
One goal that I did reach last month that changed my life was getting to shoot the birth of my cousin’s sweet baby boy Everett James (I will be blogging his story this month! Don’t miss it!!). Ya’ll, birth is absolutely AMAZING and getting to capture the moments of a baby taking his/her first breath, a daddy wiping tears from his eyes as he holds his baby for the first time, and the strength of a mother is absolutely incredible. I’m slowly getting into birth photography and I’m LOVING it! I also got to spend a week in North Carolina with some of the most incredible people I know. It always feels like home when we go up there. A beautiful family poured into our lives as we sat for hours and dreamed, casted vision, and asked so many questions about where we are going this next year with Empty Buckets. I can honestly say I am SO excited about 2016 and all that God is going to do. Thank you Celebration Church for pouring into our lives. We love you guys dearly!
This past month there were so many imperfect places but the GRACE that covered my life in those moments did so much more in me than a goal ever could. If we look beyond goals to the depth behind them we can see what Jesus is teaching us. I know for myself I’m learning to trust Jesus with every part of my life, in the joy and the pain. I’m learning to let go of the areas I want to control and the pieces of life I don’t understand. I’m learning to patiently wait and to celebrate others. I’m learning the beauty of GRACE and how to find JOY in the midst of shame. I’m learning that my identity is found ONLY in Him. And I’m learning a depth of FAITH I’ve never known before. My heart longs to be refined by my Creator and He is the master at using imperfection as preparation.
So here is to a fresh start and a brand new month sweet friends! I hope this post and these goals challenge you to go a little deeper in the month of April with Jesus.
April Goals | 2016
-Read Becoming More.
-Start a brand new journal.
-Start a sugar fast.
-Blog the birth story of sweet Everett.
-Start a women’s bible study at my apartment. Have one meeting this month.
-Bikram Yoga 2x/week
-Have a girls night! So excited about this!
-Plan an EB event for June.
-Meet with EB board.
-Rebrand and update website for EB.
-Plan trip to Uganda and Kenya this summer.
-Coffee with a sweet friend of mine.
-Prepare my heart for a Contentment Challenge and blog about it.
What are your goals for April? I would LOVE to hear them! Comment below! :)
PC: Matt Engelking